i hate him

for the weekend i went to California, and i loved it. i went to visit my cousin in san diego, and we went to the beach and to the casino. the beach was so diffrent from the beaches i have been to before, they were like little coves in the rocks. she is married and seems to be really happy with her husband. I look at them and i realize that me and my boyfriend will never be happy like them, and he is such an asshole, he would never want to go out and do anything with me or my family. all he wants to do is sit in his fucking house and watch football all the fucking time. i seriously hate him with a passion, i have no idea why i am with him. He treats me like shit and he is always pissed off at me. He never lets me talk about anything, and i always told myself that i would never change for anybody, but i have... and i hate it! school is over so im going to be moving in with him for the next 3 months...i seriously think that is the only reason why im still holding on to him. im so tired of being treated like shit, how can i let go ?!