Last week i experienced the best spring break of my life.
I Squeezed all of my stuff and myself into the back of a honda with 2 football players and then began my 12 hour trip through texass. We arrived at our destination, South Padre Island, at 3 in the morning and drove through the island looking for our hotel that we would be calling home for 6 days. I unpack my pillows and walk to find my hotel room, expecting to go to sleep, after all it was 3 in the morning. What a suprise i was in for... I walk into our room and it is a full blown party and its a complete mess. Beer pong is going on in the hallway, random people are laying in the beds doing who knows what, music is blasting through the speakers, there was no way i was going to be able to sleep that night. So me, being me, take my pillows out back to the car and tried to fix my makeup, strut back in and began my spring break. there were about 12 of us who were sharing a hotel room the majority of them were guys, which meant that our room was going to be a total pig sty, and it was. We had 2 army men as our next door neighbors, they were very attractive and a lot older than everybody, but we all just hit it off and were the best of friends. So instead of hanging out with the 12 roommates, i spent most of my time with these two men, and we had a blast. We met a waitress who was a bartender who liked to party, so we partied with her at her bar and then at her house, and it was crazy fun. I got lost from the group one night in high heels and didnt have a cellphone or any money on me so i ended up walking for 2 hours in the middle of the night and i swear i will not wear high heels for a very long time!!! Met crazy people from chicago who were the biggest gentlemen i have ever met, and they loved to party. Long story short,  i smoke like 2 packs of ciggarettes, and i dont even smoke lol. So everybody left and i couldnt help but miss my army guys more than anybody on that trip. we got 2 speeding tickets and one warning in texas, got bored with our 12 hour trip so decided, as passengers, to do beer bongs which was a horrible idea because beer makes you piss, a lot. so we kept pulling over because somebody had to pee and finally we arrive at 4 in the morning... I go to sleep, woke up at 11 and drove off to arizona a place that i said i would never return to, but keep going back.

Once my freshman year in college ended, i took off for Tucson Az. Ive been here for almost a month and i totally hate it. My boyfriend is always so busy working and when he is not working he is completely ignoring me and watching TV. why did i ever come here? i dont know anybody here and i dont know what there is to do for fun here... Man i feel sooooo stupid, and when i do find something to do its stupid cuz im by myself. I wanna go back to college, it was so much fun.

gosh, i really really hate tucson..... i hate being alone in tucson.... i wanna go home...

The last week of classes before finals week has come to an end. all i have now is pure study for final exams. Its kinda wierd not knowing if im going to come back to college here next year. i have to move all my stuff out of my dorm room within 24 hours of my last final. I have a tiny car and a lot of stuff, and arizona is a long trip from here. My boyfriend said he will come down to help me move, but when i asked him a couple days ago if he was still coming he said he couldnt. sooo im kinda upset about that, but im a strong kid, ill do it all by my self. I will be moving to tucson, Az, with my boyfriend (yeah the one that ruins my life) even though things have been pretty rocky between us. I pray to god it works out, because i have been planning to move in with him since last november, but now may is finally here and i made no other plans for the summer except to live with him and get a job. I seriously have nothing else to do, i cant move in with my parents because 1. they live out in the middle of nowhere 2. they dont have room for me 3. my family will drive me nuts, expecially after living in the dorms with no parental supervision. i have gotten to used to being independent, but i cant support myself. and i cant get an apartment because what if i do decide to come back next semester, i cant get a 3 month lease lol. So all i got is to move in with my boyfriend. I hope i will make friends and i hope that i will find stuff to do, i have no idea what there is to do in tucson for fun (im from colorado).

today the power went out on campus, and it was pitch black! i was walking out of the library with 2 friends, and then out of nowhere the power goes out, and we are in complete darkness. A guy pops out of nowhere and volunteered to walk us where we needed to go, so we get back into the dorms and the hallways are completely dark and very eerie looking. i almost expected to see a masked figure at the end of the hall, but there was none thankfully. The power was out for an hour, and it sucked because i have not one, but two big tests before finals, and i couldnt study! obviously the power is back on now, but so far the electricity going out on campus has been the scariest experience ive had since ive been here. i hope it doesnt go out again tonight! anyways, i got to study for my anthropology exam. wish me luck on my test!

for the weekend i went to California, and i loved it. i went to visit my cousin in san diego, and we went to the beach and to the casino. the beach was so diffrent from the beaches i have been to before, they were like little coves in the rocks. she is married and seems to be really happy with her husband. I look at them and i realize that me and my boyfriend will never be happy like them, and he is such an asshole, he would never want to go out and do anything with me or my family. all he wants to do is sit in his fucking house and watch football all the fucking time. i seriously hate him with a passion, i have no idea why i am with him. He treats me like shit and he is always pissed off at me. He never lets me talk about anything, and i always told myself that i would never change for anybody, but i have... and i hate it! school is over so im going to be moving in with him for the next 3 months...i seriously think that is the only reason why im still holding on to him. im so tired of being treated like shit, how can i let go ?!

{cough? }
Purple haze all in my brain
Lately things just dont seem the same
Actin funny, but I dont know why
scuse me while I kiss the sky
Purple haze all around
Dont know if Im comin up or down
Am I happy or in misery?
What ever it is, that girl put a spell on me
Help me
Help me
Oh, no, no
[faint, spoken lyrics...all questionable]
Hammerin
Talkin bout heart n...s-soul
Im talkin about hard stuff
If everbodys still around, fluff and ease, if
So far out my mind
Somethings happening, somethings happening
Ooo, ahhh
Ooo, {click} ahhh,
Ooo, ahhh
Ooo, ahhh, yeah!
Purple haze all in my eyes, uhh
Dont know if its day or night
You got me blowin, blowin my mind
Is it tomorrow, or just the end of time?
Ooo
Help me
Ahh, yea-yeah, purple haze, yeah
Oh, no, oh
Oh, help me
Purple haze, tell me, baby, tell me
I cant go on like this
Purple haze
Youre makin me blow my mind...mama
Purple haze, n-no, nooo
Purple haze, no, its painful, baby

As a college student, you are suppose to go out and learn and experiment right? i went to my first concert on saturday april 21 in el paso texas. it was so awesome! i went with my best friend and 3 other guys. these guys started talkin to us and my friend lisa was like, no lets go find those other guys that we came with so we went lookin for them and as we saw them this guy walks up to me and was like, yo. and so then this mattie guy walks up to him and was like, yo thanks for finding our girls, now f*ck off. and he did, so we watched lil wayne, young jeezy, jim jones, and some other peeps on stage. the concert ended soon so we went back home and we partied until 4 in the morning. i slept all day today! and i got a lot of my homework done. Im so tired now though. i wore my pretty brown boots and some short shorts and we drank and smoked cigars all night. then we went to this diffrent party and then this one guy got kinda jelous and started talkin smack so i was just like take us home.... it was great.
"you got all mad cuz i said i liked her"

yesterday was a chill day. me and lisa are hanging out a lot because our other friend Moe is going to have a baby so she cant party with us anymore. Yesterday we were planning on going shopping for a pair of jeans or kapris for under 10 dollars. We went to ross and found some, but then when we tried them on, none of them fit! so we went to the mall and went to 3 diffrent stores, and didnt find none there. So we quit and came back to campus and ate. then we went out for ice cream at cold stone, and cruised out to the west side of town, to check out all the old awesome houses. i want to live in a house, the dorms are killing me already. then we got back and were gonna study, then one of my friends texted me and asked if i wanted to hang out. so i went over, and we got slow and just chilled... ordered pizza and the little black guy with the pretty eyes showed up...i should of known! then around 11ish i came back to the room and fell asleep. i am now waitin for lisa to come by so we can go to class...

tonight was wild! party with the angel!
talked to sarge bout nothing. went to a party
with a group of conservative gay, older, artful people.
where do you work? when did you graduate?
your 21 right? wow, what a wild night.
thank god for mc donalds bein open 24/7!

so here is my new blog, because the other website i had my blogs on doesnt work anymore. it kinda sucks but whatever. So ill start one all over again. Im a college freshman and today is april 13th 2007, which means school is ending soon! Im so excited, so far this year has been ridiculous. Just recently, i found out that my roommate, and once best friend was stealing from me. She owes me $150 dollars, and she stole some of my shirts, earrings, cds, and BRAS. what a freak! she has been avoiding me, and she has the nerve to msg me on myspace saying that she had a problem and that she was sorry. like WTF? seriously, i dont need this bullshit! Im not the best looking person out there, but im not the worst. People are attracted to me because i have a great personality, and she was always getting really jelous. The guys loved me, and they tell me all the time that when im not around, she talks shit about me so that they would be less attracted to me, and more attracted to her. like come on! who cares! and not to mention that she has slept with pretty much every guy she has met here, and its discusting. She does that to guys who like me, but even after they f*ck, they still want me and she gets really mad. Whatever, who cares im over it. as long as i dont have to see her ill be great.

i have seen this hott guy around a couple times. JiM is very hott, and i was all sad kuz id prolly never see him again. so one night my friend JOE invited me and LISA to go hottubin with him and a friend. his friend got really drunk and kept falling, so they left and me and lisa went to a diffrent party. when we got there, i realized that the hott guy ive been seein around, was my friends ROOMMATE! he kept winking at me, and then he started making out with his dog. it was kinda gross and a big turnoff. SAFERIDE all the way home...


Last night i went to mexico with one of my best friends and 3 other guys i know. mexico is the perfect place for underage students who want to drink for cheap. and we went. So we get to this club, and the guys are chillin gettin as much beer as possible while me and my friend are drinking. from across the room two guys come and talk to us and then they went to the dance floor, and the guys were were with got kinda jelous. So im having a blast on the dance floor and then *joe, a tall skinny white guy starts talking shit. we all go back u pstairs and joe tells these guys to stop talking to me, so they dont because they are guys and they were going to fight inside that club! i somehow pull joe away and ask those other guys to just leave it alone, which they do. then one of the guys who works at the club, AB, asks me to dance with him, and i do. on the dance floor he kept tryin to kiss me, which was kinda annoying. we get back upstairs and Joe wants to fight AB and my friend LISA is yelling at some other guys to stop talking to me and then we see my old roomate and she is being beligerent and so is everybody else so i somehow get everybody to leave. crossing the border, we get through customs and the boys are still heated and want to fight so they go after these other two guys, and they were like just f*ck off before we mess you up, because they said they had brass on them. so then these two gay guys come along, and the guys we are with hit them and knock them down, and then they just left. I applogized for them cuz i felt so bad, i have never known anybody who would do that. i was very dissapointed and feeling bad for what the guys did, and i tried preventing it. so we drive back to our place, and just crash out. and then the next mornin i wake up, and my roomate is back in the room!
havent seen her in a while, so my friends come over and are being loud and abnoxious, while she is pretending to be asleep. so now im just chillin.... seein what there is to do!!!!!